Sabtu, 30 Juli 2011

The Ends of July

the ends of July
my life begin with no reply
my mistake take control with a lot of multiply

the ends of July
every night i think about something
but something never can be everything

the ends of July
the story lies between reality
never become the integrity
and i live in the same "city"

the ends of July
tell me about my characteristic
and i try to be optimistic
in this place full of critics

the ends of July
my heart beating so fast
my mind trying forget the past
and my body still fight till very last

the ends of July
my path is already decided
and i want this story completed

the ends of July
even i smile..even i laugh..
there is a hole in my mind
there is a big spot in my heart
and there is a huge slot in my soul..

is not about love..it's just about life

the difference between the words "O - V" and the words "I - F"
it changes me to think about everything that surround me

then..i just sit in the chair..
turn on my oldie computer..
and just talk much with silent unknown thing..

it because of my complicated mind, can't stand for people to enter
the high level ceiling program for my own

no one can't open it with usual keys and see my mind freely
no one want to hear my boring story after all

the ends of July.


Minggu, 24 Juli 2011

when the night come

when the night come..
it just like a darkness surround me
and the tormented soul will be free

when the night come..
every people in the world lies in their own dream
lies in their own beautiful world
in their own great desire in their life

but when the night come...
i can think clearly about my past,my present, and my future
my sins..my mind..and my soul..

but when the night come..
every time i inhale the air, is like every time my death surely come
surely become reality

but when the night come..
my problem always haunted me with this broken society-mind inside me
deep inside me

hearted soul..hearted heart..hearted spirit..to be hatred

i can't sleep well tonight

tommorow

tommorow i'll see the picture
and today is my everything
let me try to think my future
and i'm just doing nothing

everything is just nothing

the guiding light through the deep deep sea
in the night with a gentle breeze
even that future i can not see
i'm trying run away from the freeze

trying to get everything

while all the world try to stop singing
like everyone try to dancing
now i wanna do sleeping
cause my life is just the beginning

::::::::::::::::::::::tommorow:::::::::::::::::::::::::::


Kamis, 21 Juli 2011

broken society

try to find whatever i want
but the society strict me with the rules their own
try to think whatever i feel
but the society give a great sigil

hate it..heck it..hell it

hey society
do u know everythin' in this world?
no..u're nothin'
hey majority
don't u fell better, even u make a great mistake?
no, u're a fake

majority push the minority
they think they have the opportunity
to steal my ideology

majority sick the minority
they do whatever they do
and never do whatever i do

majority trash the minority
they think they are a cool
for me, they just a fool

majority dislike the minority
they think they are superior
for me, it's just an inferior

my life is my duty
when they interfere, they act very silly

my life is my decision
they can't oppress u with their own tradition

my life is my "life"
even they say i'm different, i'll say..i don't care with u
hey society

don't brain washed me with ur general ideology
and with ur general stupidity


:::::::::::::::::::::broken society::::::::::::::::::::::::

shouted heart !!!

the night come slowly crashin'
and i try to bring a wishin'
the way i'm thinkin'
it's a path that i'm choosin'

ya wanna know
ya i'll try to grow
ya wanna vow
i barely stand the blow

here..
in here..just here..and sit here

i'm typing with this keyboard whatever i will
even though i have no skill
i'll try to get a drill

build my new home
like an actress bath in the mist foam

hey..
i believe my path is right
even u tear me a part
even they judge me as a noname brat
i'll stand front intend to fight

the heck with majority
don't need ur authority
i'm just a minority

:::::::::::::afvkinasocietyaa:::::::::::::::::::::::::::

Minggu, 17 Juli 2011

pro-bl-em

my heart is twisted
my mind is roasted
and i think this is complicated

try to find the answer
but nothing last forever

lonely..i faced this problem so lonely
i don't know the happening
i want to be awakening

it's like a pain
and i fight to the gain

when the night come
it caged my freedom
like the hell is gonna happened
but this problem is never sur@ender

what should i do now?
i can't do anything
it's like wait the judge to punish u

what happen tommorow, it seems like a mystery
but mystery is my dignity
running away from suffer
but i just like a bluffer
:'(

i don't know my problem.
it just came, and stab me from behind
i'm not ready
but it says calm down buddy
even the worst i feel the pain

like i wanna cry
but they'll think i'm just a small fry
yet, i wanna fly
but they'll think it just a pray

what the heck..:'(
the problem chose me
i don't have any choice to chose it
like hell i care..

my life must go on
even i feel the pain...:'(

alone..in the small room
feel alone and lonely
even i have every happiness in my life
but, sometimes there is a big hole in my heart
no one knows
cause i pretend to be strong
when i want to cry
no one here to hear my song
maybe it because i keep it secret
from u the day on

let me recite my complicated story..please..:'(

hey.no one to hear ur story dude
cause everyone have their own canvas
and now..i draw my canvas with deep black ink in every single corner of square
in it's getting close and closer to the center of my canvas

dark as usual



Kamis, 14 Juli 2011

untuk adik-adikku

untukmu adik-adikku,

malam semakin larut dan jiwa yang tenang saling berbisik. kegelapan malam menghiasi sudut kamar dan ku mengetik sepatah demi sepatah dengan jari jemariku. mulai berdansa, mulai menari setiap ruas jariku, untuk menuliskan apa yang ingin kukatakan kepada adik2ku tercinta. dengan ketenangan dan kesabaran, setiap kata kutorehkan makna agar engkau mengerti wahai adik2ku.

kutahu, semua yang terjadi pada saat ini diluar dari keinginan yang engkau inginkan. meskipun ada kesedihan, namun bertahanlah. meskipun ada kekecewaan, namun hadapilah. karna kutahu, engkau adalah seseorang yang kuat dan takkan gentar menghadapi segala rintangan yang menghadang tuk hancurkanmu.
adik2ku, maafkanlah semua kesalahanku sebagai kakakmu. karena tak pernah hadir di setiap hari-harimu..tapi kutahu, meskipun tanpa diriku, kau adalah matahari yang bersinar terang dan takkan redup dan lekang oleh waktu. tanpa hadirku pun, engkau hebat melampaui semua ekspektasi.

kegagalan bukan sesuatu yang harus disembunyikan..semua orang pernah gagal, dan orang sukses pasti pernah mengalaminya. karena dari kegagalan itulah tempaan hidupmu semakin berat, dan nantinya dirimu akan menjadi pribadi yang kuat. kutahu adikku, engkau merasa malu dengan cemooh orang disekitarmu, dan tertawaan iblis di belakangmu, tapi adikku, semuanya akan baik-baik saja.
percayalah akan satu hal itu, dan berpikirlah dengan positif bahwa takdirmu dan rezekimu memang harus melewati karang terjal itu.

hancurkanlah! rintangan itu dengan kekuatanmu. tutup mulut mereka dengan semangat kemenanganmu, dan tinggalkanlah mereka dengan roket kecilmu. kau bukanlah orang yang bodoh. kau adalah orang yang mendapatkan cobaan lebih awal.

kejarlah cita-citamu adik2ku..meskipun kau harus berkubang didalam lumpur, berenang di antara rawa2 dan menghadapi ujian2 terberat dalam hidupmu. jangan pernah putus asa, karena belajar bisa dimana saja. asal kemauan dan tekad kuatmu itu terus tumbuh dan berkembang.

adik2ku, inilah awal yang baru untukmu. dan jangan hancurkan awal titik lecutmu dengan hal yang tak bermanfaat dan terpengaruh dengan sekitarmu. hati2lah memilih sahabat barumu dan jangan lupakan sahabat lamamu..kutak ingin masa depanmu hancur, karena beberapa org yang mengaku temanmu, tapi menitihmu kedalam ketiadaan dan kebodohan.
persetan dengan kata keren, persetan dengan kata cupu, persetan dengan kata gaul dan persetan dengan kata modis. wahai adik2ku...engkau bukanlah salah satu generasi plagiat dinegeri ini. engkau bukanlah pengikut suatu arus besar yang sedang menimpa kalangan muda negeri ini. dan aku yakin..suatu saat kau akan menjadi poros dari arus besar itu, bukan menjadi pengikutnya. jangan takut untuk tampil berbeda.. tunjukkan semangatmu, tunjukkan kemampuanmu karna kamu adalah adik2ku.
dengan berbeda, orang-orang akan mengakui keberadaanmu. akan menghargai dirimu..

kepakanlah sayap2mu yang pernah patah, bangunlah keprcayaan dirimu yang telah memudar, berdoa dan beribadahlah dengan segala kerendahan dirimu,kemudian kembalilah lagi ke angkasa...angkasa menantimu untuk menyambut dan membawamu ke tempat yang lebih tinggi dari cobaanmu itu..

dan jari jemariku berhenti menari..jam terus berjalan..mengejar sesuatu yang tiada akhir..
hidupmu, hidupku..terus berjalan tanpa berhenti..

semangatlah !!! maafkanlah kakakmu yang tak berguna ini...






afraid of

mirror mirror in the night
give me a future sight

mirror mirror in the night
give me a holy light

mirror mirror in night
show me the invisible bright

mirror mirror in the night
why u don't answer n shut ur mouth tight

mirror mirror
u must be an error
i can live in horror
without u mirror

nothing feared me except God
but mirror
i am so lonely
nothing sorrow can be honey
nothing pain can be fairly
like a pest running in fury

hey mirror
would u become my friend?
i don't care with any "fiend"

hey mirror
look at me now
what do u know?

look at me now
i'm just like a little fool
running naked around pool
i'm just like a big dumb
and my body is going numb

i'm afraid

i'm afraid of death...

Rabu, 13 Juli 2011

????

the sun crumbled down
the moon lit the night
that is the world shake in spinning

in the night,
the stargazer live in their dream
hopes the moon give the shine
right through the skyline

he says
here above the skyscraper
lit me with the light
give me a holy sight
hey the moon !

but...?????

the moon falls down
the sun rises like a dawn
that is the world spin again and again

in the day,
the daydreamer have to realize the dream
hopes the sun give a gift
right through the air to air

she says
here in the beach
lit me with ur heat
burn me with ur spirit
hey the sun!

but...?????


day and the day

nothing happened

and the day by day..

nothing changed

and theeen.....
one day
in the twilight

the stargazer and daydreamer believe
the moon and the sun isn't almighty
they said "i believe with God not u two"

and suddenly..
the moon and the sun tell them

"now, u have our lit in ur heart that always lit u until the very end
because u believe with our creator."



little flower

hey little flower what happened with ur face?
there was a scar without trace
hey little flower why u can live in this place?
because i live with a grace

hey little flower this place is stinky
better than people die freaky
hey little flower u have an ability
and i want to be a minority
hey little flower..what do u think about minority?
i think it's live without authority

hey little flower what do u do if someone leave u without a clue?
i just stick him with a glue
hey little flower what happen with u?
just dizzy and blue

hey little flower, why u so midget?
but they will not forget
hey little flower, why u save ur money to buy a racket?
because i want to leave with with my rocket

hey little flower, why u always cheerful?
because life is so beautiful
hey little flower, why u can say that life is so beautiful
because it is my blissful
and why the blissful is around u?
hey! u can make it by u

hey little flower what is ur conlcusion?
my life is my decision
and the next?
ur life is not a based script text
a script text what do u mean from that funny?
u can take all the possibility and no one can draw ur own destiny

and what is ur suggestion?
i was gave u an explanation